Sick and tired

Not literally. Just sick and tired of people. Ahhh, I just feel like locking myself away and block the world outside of me. But then again it wouldn't be any help. Well yeah, I realised that I can't sleep properly because all I do is stress. As soon as I try to fall asleep, I think of a new scenario and "dwell" on that. This cycle goes on for about an hour or 2 before I can actually fall into deep sleep.
And then you know how you wake up feeling refreshed, I don't get that feeling anymore. There's just too many things running through my mind that's stressing me out.
For starters: school is only gonna get harder. And travelling time drags a lot of this studying time out of my life. The workload is gonna build up if I don't get a crack onto things. And the pressures of passing the unit with a good grade and not just a pass.
Then mum's going to have her operation soon. So her 5 days in hospital, on top of possible months of recovery. Which means we would have to look after her and also care for my dad on top of that.
And then yeah, of course, the regrets I had in the past. You know the "What Ifs." The person I want to be there for me the most isn't really there anymore. And the one's I really confide in (not that there is many), well there's not much time with uni and studying on the agenda is there?! So yeah, one of my best mate's decided we should do random calls and a certain time :):) So I should do that soon buddy!!
Anywho, I should be reading Physiology notes right now. First proper lecture on the actual content tomorrow. And this is one of the subjects I want to do extremely well in because it's a Medical Subject. We're studying Human Anatomy and the Physiological processes of it. I think this course is more than I bargained for but it's GREAT! I am kind of enjoying school. Making new friends is a breeze. Keeping them, well uni only suggests that we make buddies for each class. And I do that! So my breaks are for MY PEOPLE! Lol. I'm great to be starting friendships with people from 4c. Again ><>

Man another thing that's pissing me off. You know how when a topic comes up and it's come up before right then you're only slightly touching on the topic to refresh the memory and the freaking person cuts you off and say yeah I know, I knowwwwwwwww. Far out. I listen to you fkn blab on all day about bullshit and you don't even stop for one second. And I didn't even bring the topic up. I was just adding along the lines to it. Far out. Pissed me off. *Breathe Helen breathe* So yeah. Argh and to think I wanted to be civil about everything.

Ok next topic. Well today I decided to head to school only. Only for the intention of going to Breadtop at Melb. Central and buying some snacks so I can eat it in my double lecture classes. It only took a few minutes so I decided to window shop for a bit and nearly missed my train to school. ><>

I was gonna go visit Jenssan and Eugene again. God damn it, I am so asian. I only wanna go for the freebees. LOL. Ok I hope they don't read this. ROFL. ><>

Ok, I'm just gonna cut it off right here before I talk anymore. I gotta get cracking on some Physiology shiz!

xoxo