Looking back this past year, the most reoccuring line I have used is "I miss Marian." Well don't we all? I love uni life, sorta. But I love Marian life, better. Everyday I'd get up and have the same routine. Brush my teeth, get dressed, eat brekky then get ready for school. Leave at like 8:30am and still be able to get to school on time. (Homeroom at 8:35am). I love the fact that I used to live near school and just get out of bed as late as I wanted to. I really miss school uniform as well. You know, the summer dress which I loved. I purchased the new style dress which was button up and had pleats in it. Much "cuter" than the zip up one, which I ended up giving to Phuong because her old one was so short. The Blue Jumpers when we were oh so young. Then the Red Jumpers which I began to love and cherish. There was also the Winter Uniform that I miss too. I don't know what was nicer. The winter uniform with white socks or opaque black stockings. Hrmph, strange thing to blog but anywho.
Of course most of all I miss seeing my friends every day. I recently went to Maria Parapouras's going away party. Most of the girls that I began my Marian journey (starting from 9 Brigid) with was there. It was such a fun night. But also seeing that a lot of people have changed since year 12 have finished. Like bad habits of smoking. It was a good night because I caught up with my mate who I haven't really spoken to properly in ages. Best D&M in ages. It made me realise how much I miss my time at Ardeer Campus as well, as shitty as it was. Lol.
Today made me take a step back even further. I saw my brother's old old primary friend on the train. And we had a brief conversation. It made me think heaps again. Like how when we were younger, we used to ride our bikes, literally everyday. I used to go bike riding all the time. Lap around my block atleast 4 times before going home. Go jogging in my backyard and playing with my dog. Then going inside after hours playing outside. Those times were the best.
Now that uni is here, or has been for the last 6-7 months, it feels like life just keeps speeding up and I got my life in fast forward. Sometimes you just want to take the remote control and press pause, and just let life slow down. It's amazing how time just goes so fast now.
Lately I've been watching One Tree Hill, dedicatedly. From season 4 to 5, you see the transition of each character as it fast tracks 4 years into the future when they are all grown up in season 5. It's made me think a lot. Where would I be in 4 years time? Let alone 10 years, which is when I plan on leaving uni (at this rate anyway). But still. Will my friends still be my friends? Because in OTH they are.
Ok, I think my blog is depressing as it is. -_-" I've been going pretty strong over the past month. I'm more optimistic about everything. It's just hearing his name a lot gets me down. And the occasional bump into his friends as well. Kinda sucks, but I guess they're still friendly. Then there was Aaron who just had to bring another thing up that got me upset but all good, all good.
Another thing to mention. I finally got my Blood Donor's card! I found out that I'm an A POS! A+, definitely! Haha. Anywho, Cat and Helen got me into this whole Blood type and personality thing. While I was out with Leena and Hel, we searched it up and strangely enough a lot of it matched my personality. So here I have a new obsession. I really want to find a book on it. LOL.
Anyway, until next time.
xoxo
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Friday, August 14, 2009
Anticipated weekend
Phew it's Friday night. I've been waiting for the weekend to come because I was feeling nostalgic and wanted to go back to work. Mainly because my job finally feels stable and I don't have to wait on call for my boss to tell me when I work and when I don't work. Now I just rock up :)
So now I'm working Saturdays at Braybrook all day and afternoons on Sunday at St Albans.
But yeah, it means that I have to miss out on majority of Van's cake day :(:( I should be greatful that I am at Braybrook on Saturday because the park is close by. So even if it's 5 minutes with my friends, then let it be 5 minutes :( Ok, small exaggeration, atleast 30-45 minutes. It should be a good day. Lovely cakes with my friends and lovely time. And work with bratty kids in the morning. And slightly better class in the arvo!
Hopefully tmr night I will also be going to Maria Parapouras's going away party. Maria's one of my highschool buddies who got a scholarship to play tennis in America. So yeah farewell party organised by her best friends. It should be a good night because I haven't seen these Marian girls in ages.
So all week, my studying regime did not even happen. I was really hoping that all my free time would go to studying but ideally it does not happen. Monday, went to Camberwell to shop. Tuesday, shop again. Wednesday, Murphy's house so he can install stuff on my laptop but spent a lot of time watching Steven playing Dota. Thursday, tried studying at the library, however went home and slept. Then today had school in the late arvo so yeah. I don't mind this late afternoon class. Today, the class went so fast because this lecturer has old man wit. Makes me laughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. He's so bloody hilarious and so freaking good! I love his analogies and I don't fall asleep in any of his classes. Best thing is I'm finally learning about Neuroscience/ Brain stuff which is basically what my course is about.
Anyway, my shopping experiences this week was complete fail :(:( I went to Camberwell on impulse because I remember they had this shop that sells cheap Bonds stuff. I ended up jumping on the Belgrave train and got off at Camberwell. I ended up bumming around in Camberwell for 2hrs or so. I bought a Bonds jacket so I could wear to school. Then walked around the area.
On Tuesday, I went shopping with Shirley and we went all the way to Richmond to check out the Bardot Factory Outlet. Kinda shit. I thought there would be better stuff there :(:( I only bought a shirt that is nearly twice my size but oh well. Anywho, then we had lunch at some shitty restaurant SHIRLEY chose -_-" Then we saw a shoe shop that said "2 BOOTS FOR $100." They had all the good brands like Tony Bianco. Omg I was so shattered because there was a pair of Tony Bianco boots but they had no sizes left :(:( Failed shopping. HOWEVER! I now know that I can go to that shop to get some good shoes because their prices are atleast 2/3's (wild guess) of the actual retail price. After failed shopping I decided to go back to the city and do some shopping there. Again nothing that caught my eye. The thing that sucks was that I was willing to spoil myself and spend some of my money. Hrmph, oh well maybe another time.
I think this is enough from me. Work tmr morning. Just hoping those bratty kids do not turn up to class tmr. And I have a nice and quiet day at work. And a lovely but short time at the park. And a good night at the party!
Good night
xoxo
So now I'm working Saturdays at Braybrook all day and afternoons on Sunday at St Albans.
But yeah, it means that I have to miss out on majority of Van's cake day :(:( I should be greatful that I am at Braybrook on Saturday because the park is close by. So even if it's 5 minutes with my friends, then let it be 5 minutes :( Ok, small exaggeration, atleast 30-45 minutes. It should be a good day. Lovely cakes with my friends and lovely time. And work with bratty kids in the morning. And slightly better class in the arvo!
Hopefully tmr night I will also be going to Maria Parapouras's going away party. Maria's one of my highschool buddies who got a scholarship to play tennis in America. So yeah farewell party organised by her best friends. It should be a good night because I haven't seen these Marian girls in ages.
So all week, my studying regime did not even happen. I was really hoping that all my free time would go to studying but ideally it does not happen. Monday, went to Camberwell to shop. Tuesday, shop again. Wednesday, Murphy's house so he can install stuff on my laptop but spent a lot of time watching Steven playing Dota. Thursday, tried studying at the library, however went home and slept. Then today had school in the late arvo so yeah. I don't mind this late afternoon class. Today, the class went so fast because this lecturer has old man wit. Makes me laughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. He's so bloody hilarious and so freaking good! I love his analogies and I don't fall asleep in any of his classes. Best thing is I'm finally learning about Neuroscience/ Brain stuff which is basically what my course is about.
Anyway, my shopping experiences this week was complete fail :(:( I went to Camberwell on impulse because I remember they had this shop that sells cheap Bonds stuff. I ended up jumping on the Belgrave train and got off at Camberwell. I ended up bumming around in Camberwell for 2hrs or so. I bought a Bonds jacket so I could wear to school. Then walked around the area.
On Tuesday, I went shopping with Shirley and we went all the way to Richmond to check out the Bardot Factory Outlet. Kinda shit. I thought there would be better stuff there :(:( I only bought a shirt that is nearly twice my size but oh well. Anywho, then we had lunch at some shitty restaurant SHIRLEY chose -_-" Then we saw a shoe shop that said "2 BOOTS FOR $100." They had all the good brands like Tony Bianco. Omg I was so shattered because there was a pair of Tony Bianco boots but they had no sizes left :(:( Failed shopping. HOWEVER! I now know that I can go to that shop to get some good shoes because their prices are atleast 2/3's (wild guess) of the actual retail price. After failed shopping I decided to go back to the city and do some shopping there. Again nothing that caught my eye. The thing that sucks was that I was willing to spoil myself and spend some of my money. Hrmph, oh well maybe another time.
I think this is enough from me. Work tmr morning. Just hoping those bratty kids do not turn up to class tmr. And I have a nice and quiet day at work. And a lovely but short time at the park. And a good night at the party!
Good night
xoxo
Friday, August 7, 2009
All smiles
I am so so so so bored right now! It's 2pm on a Friday and I have nothing to do. I thought I'd go on and look up some fashion pictures again but it's not as fickle as I'd thought it would be. If I log on weekly maybe there would be a change, but log on once or twice a week nothing new really.
I've really become inspired by the website lookbook.nu. There I found stuff that I would actually wear and some I wouldn't. But yeah, I think there's a few versatile styles I want to adopt. I definitely want to buy a denim jacket, vintage blazer and some floral skirts. And I've always loved frilly blouses so yeah. It's also got me into wanting to do some weekend projects. Like actually making a garment myself. SIGH SIGH. Which comes to my next point... I need some artistic talent. I've asked Vi, if I can borrow some patterns. She's only got dresses but it doesn't matter. I just want a weekend project.
Then there's some fabrics to purchase. I really love chiffon material for some reason. But yeah maybe if I can be bothered.
So I've finally completed one good deed for the year. Helen DO-nated blood. Ok Catherine's joke... haha. Well yes, I donated blood. Very pleased to say I saved atleast 3 lives which should count up for my lack of good Samaritan-ness this past year. To be honest, I'm lacking in educating myself about the issues out there. I miss going to the Oxfam seminars and getting involved. But I feel like noone really cares anymore. Hopefully I get cracking onto something. Anyway, back to my experience. So I went donating with Catherine and Bao. First had to fill out some forms, then have an interview. They prick ur finger to test your Hb (Haemoglobin) levels. (which was painful ><) If they give you the a O.K. they take you out to the donating area. At first the lady gave me some magazines to read, I was happily reading some articles until she pushed the needle into my arm. I started flipping the pages so frantically to try and ignore the freaking pain. At some points, she told me to squeeze the stress ball so the blood could pump faster but you can feel the needle in your arm. So painful. It was a painful experience but it's bearable pain. I'd do it again, despite how much it hurts.
After blood donating we got free refreshments. Then Cat, Bao and I headed to Footscray to eat Pho to rejuvenate our Iron levels. Hahaha
Anyway, next day I had my Winter term exam. Hopefully I come out with an HD with that subject. After exams, I had to rush over to the bookshop, buy labcoats for my cousins (so heavy) then run for my train (which I missed) then run to Officeworks and back to Flinders so I didn't miss my train. Hmrph so tiring!
Few days of holidays left then and semester 2 starts. I guess I'm panicking now but that's how I was at the start of the year. And the workload is just going to get more tough :(:( But a lot of the work sounds so interesting. Only good thing about school is my early finishes this semester, but early early mornings :(:( I guess it's alright because I have the rest of the day free...
Enough from me
xoxo
I've really become inspired by the website lookbook.nu. There I found stuff that I would actually wear and some I wouldn't. But yeah, I think there's a few versatile styles I want to adopt. I definitely want to buy a denim jacket, vintage blazer and some floral skirts. And I've always loved frilly blouses so yeah. It's also got me into wanting to do some weekend projects. Like actually making a garment myself. SIGH SIGH. Which comes to my next point... I need some artistic talent. I've asked Vi, if I can borrow some patterns. She's only got dresses but it doesn't matter. I just want a weekend project.
So I've finally completed one good deed for the year. Helen DO-nated blood. Ok Catherine's joke... haha. Well yes, I donated blood. Very pleased to say I saved atleast 3 lives which should count up for my lack of good Samaritan-ness this past year. To be honest, I'm lacking in educating myself about the issues out there. I miss going to the Oxfam seminars and getting involved. But I feel like noone really cares anymore. Hopefully I get cracking onto something. Anyway, back to my experience. So I went donating with Catherine and Bao. First had to fill out some forms, then have an interview. They prick ur finger to test your Hb (Haemoglobin) levels. (which was painful ><) If they give you the a O.K. they take you out to the donating area. At first the lady gave me some magazines to read, I was happily reading some articles until she pushed the needle into my arm. I started flipping the pages so frantically to try and ignore the freaking pain. At some points, she told me to squeeze the stress ball so the blood could pump faster but you can feel the needle in your arm. So painful. It was a painful experience but it's bearable pain. I'd do it again, despite how much it hurts.
After blood donating we got free refreshments. Then Cat, Bao and I headed to Footscray to eat Pho to rejuvenate our Iron levels. Hahaha
Anyway, next day I had my Winter term exam. Hopefully I come out with an HD with that subject. After exams, I had to rush over to the bookshop, buy labcoats for my cousins (so heavy) then run for my train (which I missed) then run to Officeworks and back to Flinders so I didn't miss my train. Hmrph so tiring!
Few days of holidays left then and semester 2 starts. I guess I'm panicking now but that's how I was at the start of the year. And the workload is just going to get more tough :(:( But a lot of the work sounds so interesting. Only good thing about school is my early finishes this semester, but early early mornings :(:( I guess it's alright because I have the rest of the day free...
Enough from me
xoxo
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Charity Ball
I feel majorly drained today for no particularly tiring reason. Leo's Club Youth Charity Ball was a pretty good night. Only crap things about it was: 1. The night went so fast, 2. I thought more Marian '08 girls would be there, that's why I was looking forward to it. But I did, however, make the most of my night, despite the absence of my friends. So from our class of '08, there was me, Helen, Phuong, Shirley, Donna, Debbie, Daniella, Sarah Foster, Florence and Stephanie Frydas. It was a good turn out. I have been informed that $7000 has been raised and all of that money is going to the Moira Children's Foundation. No idea what that foundation is about but HEY! Good Cause! Kudos babyyy.
I thought everyone looked stunning. Hrmph, I still can't get over my ugly dress that everyone complimented. I didn't like it and yeahhhh. My hair was nice only cuz my sister did it. And I coloured it earlier in the week Gosh, I loved Helen Nguyen's dress. Look SCHMEXY! And of course all my girls looked stunning as well :):)
The food was pretty good. Especially the mains. Grilled Chicken with Mushroom sauce. Mmmm... I can still feel the taste.
Highlight of the night was when Donna, Phuong and I were taking photos in the foyer. We decided to put on 10 second timer ... and runn... up and down. It was quite amusing for those around us but I'm sure we looked like a pack of losers ... who were having fun. Hahaha. Hrmm, my thighs are so damn sore. Probably from all that dancing. I'm sure we rocked the dance floor. It was a good night indeed. Photos are up on my facebook. Unfortunately, we didn't photowhore as much which sucked because now most the memories are only in our head and not enough to share. LOL.
Oks, other than Charity Ball I've been swamped with Winter School exam prep. I've been trying to cram so much revision in so I wouldn't fall behind when Charity Ball came, Blood donating soon and of course, my new found "career" as a tutor. So awhile ago, my mate Kwan gave me Nam Quang tuition boss's phone number, which I delayed because I didn't want to talk Viet and sit on a waiting list that might take awhile. However, one fine Friday morning I called up and he told me to go in for a training the next day. Woo! Two long days of training which I thought was quite annoying. He called me Monday morning to see if I could work and I had to decline because I had uni. So all week I had this guilty conscious for saying no and that Duc (BOSS) will not call me back. He finally did and I felt so relieved. I have work tomorrow and maybe finally some income coming it. I hope this all works out because the job is cash in hand and I don't need to notify Centrelink every fortnight about it. :):) I'm thinking about working two jobs but I have no idea how I'm gonna squeeze studying into all this. I just desperately need the money to help my family out ><>
Anywho, I really should get to bed because I have another early start!
Good night
xoxo
I thought everyone looked stunning. Hrmph, I still can't get over my ugly dress that everyone complimented. I didn't like it and yeahhhh. My hair was nice only cuz my sister did it. And I coloured it earlier in the week Gosh, I loved Helen Nguyen's dress. Look SCHMEXY! And of course all my girls looked stunning as well :):)
The food was pretty good. Especially the mains. Grilled Chicken with Mushroom sauce. Mmmm... I can still feel the taste.
Highlight of the night was when Donna, Phuong and I were taking photos in the foyer. We decided to put on 10 second timer ... and runn... up and down. It was quite amusing for those around us but I'm sure we looked like a pack of losers ... who were having fun. Hahaha. Hrmm, my thighs are so damn sore. Probably from all that dancing. I'm sure we rocked the dance floor. It was a good night indeed. Photos are up on my facebook. Unfortunately, we didn't photowhore as much which sucked because now most the memories are only in our head and not enough to share. LOL.
Oks, other than Charity Ball I've been swamped with Winter School exam prep. I've been trying to cram so much revision in so I wouldn't fall behind when Charity Ball came, Blood donating soon and of course, my new found "career" as a tutor. So awhile ago, my mate Kwan gave me Nam Quang tuition boss's phone number, which I delayed because I didn't want to talk Viet and sit on a waiting list that might take awhile. However, one fine Friday morning I called up and he told me to go in for a training the next day. Woo! Two long days of training which I thought was quite annoying. He called me Monday morning to see if I could work and I had to decline because I had uni. So all week I had this guilty conscious for saying no and that Duc (BOSS) will not call me back. He finally did and I felt so relieved. I have work tomorrow and maybe finally some income coming it. I hope this all works out because the job is cash in hand and I don't need to notify Centrelink every fortnight about it. :):) I'm thinking about working two jobs but I have no idea how I'm gonna squeeze studying into all this. I just desperately need the money to help my family out ><>
Anywho, I really should get to bed because I have another early start!
Good night
xoxo
Monday, July 20, 2009
Light
I guess birthday wasn't all bad. I actually got out of the house and went out for dinner. Pretty call restaurant because it was all you can eat. And very awesome atmosphere. We ate for an hour straight. And then ate some cake. Not a bad night. Only fail about the day was the shoes I wanted to buy ended up to be about 6-7inches high. GG, did not buy them.
Next day had dinner with the family. Pretty good night as well. Felt good because it just felt like another family dinner outing rather than let's celebrate Helen's birthday. We ate at Plume. I love eating Peking Duck. So delicious :):) Went home and watched Harry Potter. Great anticipation for the 6th movie, which I watched at IMAX. It was kinda shitty because the 3D effects only lasted about 15 minutes into the film, then the rest of the film wasn't in 3D. But it was a pretty good film, despite what people say. I still thought it was good. Only shitty thing again was that I left my beret back in the theatre :(:( Oh Gosh, was so God damn shattered. I was planning on buying the same one again, if they have it in stock! Would suck really bad if they didn't have it. But what are the odds of it still being there ><
Anywho, I kinda miss being a kid and just going IMAX. I feel like doing that for all the movies I want to watch now. And I really wanna go Museum, this time with a camera. Hahaha. I love going to these places. Walking along Carlton Gardens was nice too :):)
Hrmph, Charity Ball is next week. I changed my mind again and decided that I'm not gonna buy anything else for it. I'm just gonna wear shoes that I've already got at home, clutch at home and all set. Except accessories. Maybe I'd fork out some cash for that BUT that should be about it. It's just ONE night, right?! :) It's not like it's my Highschool formal or anything. I feel like a stingy ass even though my siblings gave me money for my birthday!
Had a really gay day today. My plans of going to replace my beret failed. Didn't end up going hp because I woke up late. Went Footscray instead because I had to pick up my glasses. Didn't end up getting them because the stupid Optometry place was renovating and just moved to a new place and they were just unpacking everything. -_-" I went Forges and took ages to find some SEAM-FREE underwear. No, I do not want Granny panties, nor do I want G-strings. Just normal underwear that has no seams. Took me forever to find a pair, that I do not even know if it's seam free. --" I was unaware of the time. Didn't get a chance to buy myself a fob roll. But managed to get myself a BubbleCup. Missed my train. Was late to school. Oh and might I add I got picked up on the train. o.O
Guy with iPhone writes note on his phone: "Can you plz stop listening to ur music so loud... (ME: WTF, RUDE MUCH?) ... and can you plz tell me ur name?"
*taps me on the leg*
Me: What?! *passes phone back*
Guy: *passes phone back to me again with same msg*
Me: Urgh, no.
Guy: So that's a no?
Me: Yeah, no thanks?? *blushes*
Ahhh so awkward. ROFL.
Anywho enough from me
xoxo
Next day had dinner with the family. Pretty good night as well. Felt good because it just felt like another family dinner outing rather than let's celebrate Helen's birthday. We ate at Plume. I love eating Peking Duck. So delicious :):) Went home and watched Harry Potter. Great anticipation for the 6th movie, which I watched at IMAX. It was kinda shitty because the 3D effects only lasted about 15 minutes into the film, then the rest of the film wasn't in 3D. But it was a pretty good film, despite what people say. I still thought it was good. Only shitty thing again was that I left my beret back in the theatre :(:( Oh Gosh, was so God damn shattered. I was planning on buying the same one again, if they have it in stock! Would suck really bad if they didn't have it. But what are the odds of it still being there ><
Anywho, I kinda miss being a kid and just going IMAX. I feel like doing that for all the movies I want to watch now. And I really wanna go Museum, this time with a camera. Hahaha. I love going to these places. Walking along Carlton Gardens was nice too :):)
Hrmph, Charity Ball is next week. I changed my mind again and decided that I'm not gonna buy anything else for it. I'm just gonna wear shoes that I've already got at home, clutch at home and all set. Except accessories. Maybe I'd fork out some cash for that BUT that should be about it. It's just ONE night, right?! :) It's not like it's my Highschool formal or anything. I feel like a stingy ass even though my siblings gave me money for my birthday!
Had a really gay day today. My plans of going to replace my beret failed. Didn't end up going hp because I woke up late. Went Footscray instead because I had to pick up my glasses. Didn't end up getting them because the stupid Optometry place was renovating and just moved to a new place and they were just unpacking everything. -_-" I went Forges and took ages to find some SEAM-FREE underwear. No, I do not want Granny panties, nor do I want G-strings. Just normal underwear that has no seams. Took me forever to find a pair, that I do not even know if it's seam free. --" I was unaware of the time. Didn't get a chance to buy myself a fob roll. But managed to get myself a BubbleCup. Missed my train. Was late to school. Oh and might I add I got picked up on the train. o.O
Guy with iPhone writes note on his phone: "Can you plz stop listening to ur music so loud... (ME: WTF, RUDE MUCH?) ... and can you plz tell me ur name?"
*taps me on the leg*
Me: What?! *passes phone back*
Guy: *passes phone back to me again with same msg*
Me: Urgh, no.
Guy: So that's a no?
Me: Yeah, no thanks?? *blushes*
Ahhh so awkward. ROFL.
Anywho enough from me
xoxo
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Materialistic
Other than Winter school, my days are slot with spending time with the girls and of course SHOPPING, whether it is shopping shopping, window shopping, online window shopping etc etc etc. I am constantly shopping and lusting after materials I simply cannot afford.
Ahh, been such an emo over the past couple of days. Some people really look forward to their birthdays, while I just don't want to at all. Don't really want to make a big deal out of it. This sounds so selfish but mother ended up getting a cake catered for me. And I told her I didn't want it because it cost so much and I rather get something else. I feel so bad now because she cancelled the catering and she was only doing it because she cared. But yeah, everyone's been going on and on about doing something small, but I was something smaller that small, which is nothing at all. Only thing is my birthday is on a Friday which makes it hard to get out of saying anything. Oh well, just letting everyone know in advance that I'll be in hiding all weekend :)
Anyway, in the light of birthdays, I spoilt myself with a new handbag. However that has set me back quite a fair bit. I still want that other bag and items for the charity ball like a clutch, black gladiator heels and some accessories. I'm so annoyed for getting a white dress now. I wish I bought the black one instead, but nooooo sales assistant and sister insisted I get the white one. -_-" And I really need a new wardrobe. Damn it!
So yesterday, I went yum cha with some of the girls. Me, Belinda, Catherine, Helen, Karren and Van. It was all you can eat, so pretty worth the value that we played. $16.80pp. After we went shopping and Van left us for class, Cat went Karaoke and we were joined by Vi. Shop shop shop. Went home and yeah, forgot what I did. Oh and I got a new phone recently. Nokia E71, which I'm quite shattered about because it did not come in Black and Red. Probably not released in Australia but yeah. Suckssss
Ahh cbf blogging now.
Ciao xoxo
My favourite websites this week has to be: Sportsgirl.com.au (mainly for forums) and LOOKBOOK.nu. Great for fashion inspiration!
Ahh, been such an emo over the past couple of days. Some people really look forward to their birthdays, while I just don't want to at all. Don't really want to make a big deal out of it. This sounds so selfish but mother ended up getting a cake catered for me. And I told her I didn't want it because it cost so much and I rather get something else. I feel so bad now because she cancelled the catering and she was only doing it because she cared. But yeah, everyone's been going on and on about doing something small, but I was something smaller that small, which is nothing at all. Only thing is my birthday is on a Friday which makes it hard to get out of saying anything. Oh well, just letting everyone know in advance that I'll be in hiding all weekend :)
Anyway, in the light of birthdays, I spoilt myself with a new handbag. However that has set me back quite a fair bit. I still want that other bag and items for the charity ball like a clutch, black gladiator heels and some accessories. I'm so annoyed for getting a white dress now. I wish I bought the black one instead, but nooooo sales assistant and sister insisted I get the white one. -_-" And I really need a new wardrobe. Damn it!
So yesterday, I went yum cha with some of the girls. Me, Belinda, Catherine, Helen, Karren and Van. It was all you can eat, so pretty worth the value that we played. $16.80pp. After we went shopping and Van left us for class, Cat went Karaoke and we were joined by Vi. Shop shop shop. Went home and yeah, forgot what I did. Oh and I got a new phone recently. Nokia E71, which I'm quite shattered about because it did not come in Black and Red. Probably not released in Australia but yeah. Suckssss
Ahh cbf blogging now.
Ciao xoxo
My favourite websites this week has to be: Sportsgirl.com.au (mainly for forums) and LOOKBOOK.nu. Great for fashion inspiration!
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Let's count my fortune
Sarcasm right there!
I'd rather say, let's count the number of misfortunes that I've so far encountered over these 7 months of 2009. You know it's kinda funny how we always focus on the bad things in life when the good things are still always there.
From the beginning of the year, there has just been a number of things that I have faced and now I just wanna give up and don't wanna face anything anymore. We can't always have the good things in life but I don't want anymore turmoil! With all this bitching about the bad stuff, I tend to take the good things in life for granted. Good things do happen to me and sometimes I just feel like a spoilt brat when things don't go my way. Say, I want a laptop. I got the laptop. I want this and that, I get it. I guess I am really selfish. Material things can't keep me happy for long. The number of times I went shopping this year just to make me happy.
I guess 2009 is just a turning point for me. God throws everything out in the open for me to fight and accomplish. I guess I don't wanna do this anymore. Every time I come to anything religious, it's like I don't want to believe anymore. I guess I pray for the wrong things because they're never gonna come true anyway. As much as people say "have faith," what's there to have faith for. It's not like we can turn back the clocks and relive everything. Remake everything that didn't work so everything would be ok. Life just doesn't work that way.
See how I always complain about the bad things in life when there are good things as well. Like how nice Vi's BBQ gathering was. And it's good to see everyone planning stuff for the girls to get together. But now it's just jammed altogether. So I decided that I don't wanna do a birthday dinner anymore because everyone's just organising stuff and it's not like that could afford another outing. So yeah just stuff it. Probably the reasons why I never make a birthday is because there are always other things before my birthday seeing as it's holidays and I have that fear of noone turning up. LOL. But yeah I guess that again is just one of my security things. I just push all that into putting up a happy face and make the most of everything I have. Ahhh, so good at being fake.
And then there's other things in my life like my dad's ongoing illness. It's kinda scary studying Psychology, only to find that some symptoms described in my text book is symptoms that my dad shows. It's so difficult living with him. But then again he's been like this for a few years. I guess I just want that freedom of not having to look after someone who's disabled :( Wish life could be much different.
Anyway just gotta focus on all the positives in life. Even if I have to put on a fake smile :)
Good night.
I'd rather say, let's count the number of misfortunes that I've so far encountered over these 7 months of 2009. You know it's kinda funny how we always focus on the bad things in life when the good things are still always there.
From the beginning of the year, there has just been a number of things that I have faced and now I just wanna give up and don't wanna face anything anymore. We can't always have the good things in life but I don't want anymore turmoil! With all this bitching about the bad stuff, I tend to take the good things in life for granted. Good things do happen to me and sometimes I just feel like a spoilt brat when things don't go my way. Say, I want a laptop. I got the laptop. I want this and that, I get it. I guess I am really selfish. Material things can't keep me happy for long. The number of times I went shopping this year just to make me happy.
I guess 2009 is just a turning point for me. God throws everything out in the open for me to fight and accomplish. I guess I don't wanna do this anymore. Every time I come to anything religious, it's like I don't want to believe anymore. I guess I pray for the wrong things because they're never gonna come true anyway. As much as people say "have faith," what's there to have faith for. It's not like we can turn back the clocks and relive everything. Remake everything that didn't work so everything would be ok. Life just doesn't work that way.
See how I always complain about the bad things in life when there are good things as well. Like how nice Vi's BBQ gathering was. And it's good to see everyone planning stuff for the girls to get together. But now it's just jammed altogether. So I decided that I don't wanna do a birthday dinner anymore because everyone's just organising stuff and it's not like that could afford another outing. So yeah just stuff it. Probably the reasons why I never make a birthday is because there are always other things before my birthday seeing as it's holidays and I have that fear of noone turning up. LOL. But yeah I guess that again is just one of my security things. I just push all that into putting up a happy face and make the most of everything I have. Ahhh, so good at being fake.
And then there's other things in my life like my dad's ongoing illness. It's kinda scary studying Psychology, only to find that some symptoms described in my text book is symptoms that my dad shows. It's so difficult living with him. But then again he's been like this for a few years. I guess I just want that freedom of not having to look after someone who's disabled :( Wish life could be much different.
Anyway just gotta focus on all the positives in life. Even if I have to put on a fake smile :)
Good night.
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